What would you do?

and what would you feel.........??

when someone you care about has gone out for hours and never once he has the initiative to sms you or inform his whereabouts?

or when he has gone out with his friends but never ever he send an sms just to say "don't worry, I am ok, I guess I'll be home late, dont worry too much"?

what would u really feel? i guess it's is called worried. right?

but what would you feel everytime you go out with the same person, but this time around, he had the initiative to smsed and informed his friends his whereabouts?

or that he said to them he'll be late?

or he just sms them, all the time when you were with him.

you saw him replying sms, you saw him informing his friends. but he didnt do the same thing when he's not out with you......

what would you really feel? what am i feeling now is called pissed off.

yes. i am really pissed off now. i dont care if you were saying i am being too emotional. what does emotional means to you?

i don't know about you, but i feel really pissed off if the one I care so much, doesnt even try to contact me at least once while he was out.

i feel pissed off when everytime i went out with him, i saw him sms-ing his friends telling his whereabouts, but why didnt he do that everytime he's out with his friend, and try to sms me? at least try once in a while. i am not saying that i am being so controlling, wanting him to tell me his whereabout every single minutes, or hours. but after 3 hours and you heard nothing from him, doesnt it feels like, you are nothing to him? i mean, please. no matter how cool you are about him, you will still feel so worried when he's out and never once he smsed you, right?

the thing i am really mad about is his words. he once told me, he would really feel not appreciated if i was out with my friends, hanging out for hours and hours, but never once i smsed him. have i done it so far? NO. coz everytime i am out with my friends, i will still sms him once in a while. saying where i am. what movie i am watching. what i took for lunch. etc etc. you know why i did that? coz i dont wanna worried him. and yes, i still think of him when i am out with my friends. and this is called, missing a person.

but did he do the same thing with me? NO. again. i am pleasing other person, while, he never tried to pleased me. can you at least do the same thing you want me to do?? treat me like you want me to treat you.

what would you feel if i am out for hours, and i dont even bother to sms you. or the worst case scenario would be, i never bother to reply your sms. you, yourself know that, i will never ever sms you in the 1st place. that's our promise right? but it doenst mean that, i am not eager waiting for your sms. i've promised not to be the 1st one to sms, but i never promised that i would not reply your sms. darn! i am so pissed off. please walk the talk. please treat me as what u want me to treat you.

i feel like i am nothing to you. yea, YOU. you know who you are. how am i to feel secure in this relation if all that you do have made me feel insecure? i dont care who you are going out with. or where are your whereabouts. i just want you to at least say something. just at least say "Hi, awak buat apa tuh? kita still kat luar nh. kta balik lambat sket kot. kalau kita tak sms tuh, kita busy lah tuh. awak jgn risau k. nanti sampai umah kita sms or call awak. awak take care ye?". haihhhhhh. kan senang mcm tuh. just at least tunjuk yang you still concern pasal the people you love. jangan ingt orang laen tak risau kalau kita keluar berjam2 tak inform apa2. hmmmmmm.

aku baru perasan entry aku cakap omputih. lintang pukang plak tuh. huhuhuhuhu. biasalah. kalo aku marah mmg aku akan type entry in English. sbb ape? sbb kalo dalam English, kdg2 perkataan dia bunyik lembut jer. kalo in BM kompom bunyik macam mengamuk.

esok aku exam. gigi dh kurang sket sakit. alhamdulillah. tapi hati nh sakit dia, ishhhh. malas dah aku nak sambung panjang2. aku just nak luahkan jer. baru lega sket. kalau aku marah, aku lagi suka luah kat cnh berbanding aku ckp face to face. tau sbb ape? sbb kalo face to face, belom sempat nak sampai point nak ckp, mesti nanti akan argue dulu. last2 makin teruk jadinya. sbb tuh aku prefer blogging. kalau dia baca pon biar dia baca sampai habes. dia nak argue ke ape, SMS lah. itu pon kalau ingt nak sms. kalau masa rindu2 baru sebok2 nak sms, tpi masa tak rindu tak sms, haihhhhhhhh. malas nak ckp lah. tolonglah. nak tunggu perasaan awak tuh rindu dulu, baru nak tercarik2 kita nh?? heh. ingt kita mesin lepas rindu ke? huh! or nak tunggu kita kecik ati baru nak tercarik2? hmmmmmm. keciknya hati. bila awak dah sorang2 baru nak carik kita eyh? sedeyhnye.

p/s: where am i belong? who am i to you? haihhhhhhh~ cakap lebih2 kang, awak ingat kita nak mintak putus. huhuhuhuhuhuhuh